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nothing beats having spent the rest of my life with someone who understands my culture and home as much as i do.

Dreams - Cranberries

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

Ah, la da ah...
La...

I want more imposible to ignore,
Imposible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Ah, da, da da da, da, la.

submission

it'll be nice to have someone to have and hold.

her heart she gave to someone she love so dearly.
but it is scarred by the very person she love.
time again with ignorance as an excuse, he hurts.
blessed with patience and endurance she stands by him.
giving him the best she can possibly give.
wearing thin, she climbs for support.
all he provides is his foot to hold on to, cause his hands are too busy.
with so much love she submits to him unconditionally.
with nothing, nothing in return.

no use for a name- friends of the enemy

this song brings memories from way back almost SEVEN years ago.
a friendship which means alot.
i love you bananas.hahaha

a song for both NIZAM and FAIZAL

Lost in confusion
not knowing which way to return
to the person you know
this trepidation makes you
take it out on someone else
you forever
everybody wins
i don't think so
what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind
not your opinion
sounds like you learn it from a show
it appears you have lost
so sick of marching in your lonliness parade
stay together underneath a giant tidal wave
what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind
your imatated ordinary life
its when that you can't break free can you
take a chance as you let it go
happy without the words you'll never know
no way to lose when your mimicking you're paying
a no decision forbidden home
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely soul
no one is safe inside your zone

FEAR, i do not

I am who I am.
A soul without a name.
With blood, red as a beet, flowing through this body.
A body that was named, Lavinia,
Is now a body of a woman.
With fully formed breast and a womb to carry her own.
She cries a liquid called tears.
These tears that cry happy, sad and anger.
These tears that cry pain and fear.
This is the woman that crucifies herself over failure, an egomaniac.
But a woman who stands on solid grounds.
This soul with a mind so spectacular,
Has finally learnt not to fear.
For fear is thy weakness.
For fear is death.

a humble rose

Trampled to skin the floor,

By the very spawns who came as fluid entities.

To gently feed the sleeping serpent, he provokes.

To no fault of his, he succumbs to paralysis.

As he holds the rose which pricks and flow such honest vanities,

He sees not the said witch, but truth, virtue and humble mystery.

As the rose sheds her petals in regret for which he bleeds,

He just looks at her and concedes.

He whispers, “Hush now, shed no more.”

And he explains, for every petal fallen he hurts by four.

He raises her to his lips, as her thorns still embedded to subdue.

His gentle breathe gently blows on her being,

He says, “I love you.”

composed by: the great one

humanly

when the sun meets the pupil,
a brand new day arises with a mission only God knows.
diving right into our humanly lifestyles,
to feed ego, to indulge excessively in a passion or to being intemperate,
but just never once to please Him.

temptations that surrounds,
destroying the wondrous creation of God with darkness,
like a disease that kills, it spreads without a known.

influenced by the prince of devils, Beelzebub.
despicable enough to put death upon the innocents.
our mistakes we face with denial.

unlike a new born.
we make our choices, we answer to our deeds.
but till judgment day,
we shall be weary, weary of our every move.

this would bring back loads of memories

yew have added
sparkles tu my eyes,
sweet nothings tu my ear,
a scent thru my nose,
sugar tu my lips..
and a melody tu my heartbeat.
i luurrve yew darling
with all my heart.
and neber will yew be replaced.
lurrves,
-pwiincess'j-

Endless Rain - X Japan.I'm so addicted to it..

Lyrics | X Japan lyrics - Endless Rain lyrics

i love you daddy

sorry if i have made you angry again.
i never meant to do so.
i have always tried so hard, always did.

daddy, i am so sorry i keep failing you.
i am so sorry for the times i act like a kid.
i am so sorry i could not make you happy.
i am sorry i was never the perfect kid.

daddy, i truly love you.
the words you use sometimes hurt so much.
so much that i break lose and go insane.
daddy, please don't hate me.
please stop being angry at me.
i promise i will be good.

i don't want to compare.
but sometimes it isn't fair.
please forgive me if i feel jealous.
i want that same attention too.
please forgive me if i hate her.
she gets more than what i do.
please forgive me if i beat her.
for the pain she puts me through.

i love you daddy.
i really do.
don't be angry.
don't be mad.
i am your daughter too.

shmalliie

she is one hell of an ugly girl.
but she is the cutest kid ever.
the darlingest of the darlings.
and is a smartie little creature too.
miss yong zi qing.

even bum bum thinks this is one cute girl,
not attractive but extremely adorable.

i so wish i could keep her as my pet.
she is such a shmallie.
weehooo.....

14thdecember2008.blessed sacrament church

another day in church.
it's the christmas carnival larhh.
but miss those dayss.
the days of our time.
church was like my second home.
nowadays these kids are so useless..

boring bunch of people around.
miss watching soccer or playing table soccer.
the basement, the long chats and stuff..
ohhh and the crushes we had.hahaha

hai...all over now..
see ya'll on christmas eve old peeps.

three cheers to gloria jean's

gloria jean's rock my sock










mudcakiies.woohooo
one more pleaseee










and my all time favourite cocoa loco
enjoymenntss.....

my elimo

my darling zamzam and mr. khai

i miss you so much..
kuku..stop working and meet me now can?
i hate this feeling.
i so need your shoulders to cry on now.
i need you my punching bag.
i have so much to tell you.

The ONE Up Above

you strengthen me indeed.
you chose to live an arduous way of life.
the way which few would choose.
the way of perseverance and strength.
the way of sharing and kindness.
you love each and everyone of us,
good or bad, you never gave up on us.
yet you encourage us to stand up and walk on.
no matter how evil our sins may be.
you treasured us ever so dearly.
so much i want to thank you for.
even for the little things you did.
and apologise for the wrongs i have made
even in times of troubles.
you listened to my rantings.
and you never complained a single word.
instead you showed me how great of a person i am.
a person of good news.

reliving the moment? heh.you wish

if i had a chance to relive a moment,
i would relive last night till morn.

went for a movie.
pasir panjang started out bad.
but the night died.
and dawn brought party to live.
hooha was great.
sang tong hua in front of a crowd.
how embarrassing.
yet you think it was good.
you held me in your arms way back home.
and the moment has just begun.
everything felt comfortable then.
even your egoism had flown away.
i wonder why.
it feels so perfect.
but then.reality had to step in.
knock on the door and threw me senses.
and i realise it may not be for long.
and here i am again in tears over a stupid f**k.
trying to think of reliving the impossible.
what has gotten into me.
when will this ever end i wonder.
give me a break. im jaded, really.

if only people could see it through my eyes.
then this pain they shall understand and realise.

i miss you too

I don't even have to breath a word
And you said it all.
Now I'm filled with anguish and pain.
Numbed like a porcelain doll.

If only I was selfish enough.
Then maybe, only maybe.

How much I yearn for you.
Your body against mine.
Savouring every moment spent.
I fight those tears of mine.

Know not of what I'm doing.
Maybe love it shall be called.
For this is the very feeling
I have never felt before.

If only I knew the answers.
If only I could change time.
If only I could decide what my heart is longing for.
Or if only you were mine.

But if only, if onlys could exist.
For this agony i can't resist.

chika chika boom boom

chika chika boom boom.
there was a boy named shoom shoom.
an alien invaded his room room.
he brought her out on a vroom vroom.
they went somwhere to oom oom.
their love began to bloom bloom.
and he became her groom groom.
regretting being with woom woom[alien].
he chased her with a broom broom.
now she looks very gloom gloom.
falling into her doom doom.
finally landed into her tomb tomb.

he then found a wife named foom foom.
and got her pregnant in her womb womb.
they then named their child noom noom.
happy was shoom shoom to marry foom foom.
where they lived happily in a street called choom choom.


the end.

created by the twinnies
farhana and lavinia

i sit by

just as the clouds pass me by
to think there is more beyond those skies
beneath that mystery up above
lies us humans with fickle minds

sitting here deep in thoughts
craving to know the existence of God
who is that majestic figure up above
who directs our story life here on earth

being strong for you

i shall cry tears so clear
to be seen as a being beyond magnitude
agonized by reality
a notion i disagree
yet fruitless to salvage
bitten by the truth i sit in silence
fixing the shattered glass of my heart
still. scars shall remain

a banish child of eve
weeping this valley of tears
courageous on the surface
but a fragile heart resides in thee

as love surrounds
thou shall wrestle thy despair
for with strength, there is hope
and with hope, triumph

i would rather take your place

my heart is sinking
my baby is drowning
in those cuffs you immerse
a remorseful act of shame
resenting your own
you hide like a snail

an outcome you shall face
but with strength and love,
you shall fight this battle of war

in God's grace you shall repent
and you shall rise like a sublime being
proud and behold you shall conquer
for i will always be your pillar of strength

i will forever love you
your sister,
your friend

you will always be my little baby love

fallen angel i shall be

As though in Romeo and Juliet.
Gullible as it may seem.
Like a broken recorder.
Its history repeats.
Realise, you did not.
A fallen angel awaits your fall.
Like an eagle protecting its young.
It will stand against all odds.
But invisible to your sight.
You stabbed it time and again.
Wounded and scarred,
it has finally died.
In peace now it shall leave.
For its mission is done.
Above heavens it shall watch you.
As you prey and hunt.

arghhh

what am i suppose to do?
i do miss you
what am is suppose to do?
i do want you
what am i suppose to do?
i do like you
why do you make me tingle in my tummy?
if only the answer was known.
if only moments last forever.
if only, if onlys exist.

blood is thicker than water