protagonist

i love my local men the way they are.

2010-04-01T14:51:00.004+08:00

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nothing beats having spent the rest of my life with someone who understands my culture and home as much as i do.

Dreams - Cranberries

2010-04-01T07:37:00.000+08:00

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

Ah, la da ah...
La...

I want more imposible to ignore,
Imposible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Ah, da, da da da, da, la.

submission

2010-04-01T06:44:00.002+08:00

it'll be nice to have someone to have and hold.

her heart she gave to someone she love so dearly.
but it is scarred by the very person she love.
time again with ignorance as an excuse, he hurts.
blessed with patience and endurance she stands by him.
giving him the best she can possibly give.
wearing thin, she climbs for support.
all he provides is his foot to hold on to, cause his hands are too busy.
with so much love she submits to him unconditionally.
with nothing, nothing in return.

no use for a name- friends of the enemy

2009-10-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

this song brings memories from way back almost SEVEN years ago.
a friendship which means alot.
i love you bananas.hahaha

a song for both NIZAM and FAIZAL

Lost in confusion
not knowing which way to return
to the person you know
this trepidation makes you
take it out on someone else
you forever
everybody wins
i don't think so
what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind
not your opinion
sounds like you learn it from a show
it appears you have lost
so sick of marching in your lonliness parade
stay together underneath a giant tidal wave
what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind
your imatated ordinary life
its when that you can't break free can you
take a chance as you let it go
happy without the words you'll never know
no way to lose when your mimicking you're paying
a no decision forbidden home
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely soul
no one is safe inside your zone

FEAR, i do not

2009-09-09T03:24:00.001+08:00

I am who I am.
A soul without a name.
With blood, red as a beet, flowing through this body.
A body that was named, Lavinia,
Is now a body of a woman.
With fully formed breast and a womb to carry her own.
She cries a liquid called tears.
These tears that cry happy, sad and anger.
These tears that cry pain and fear.
This is the woman that crucifies herself over failure, an egomaniac.
But a woman who stands on solid grounds.
This soul with a mind so spectacular,
Has finally learnt not to fear.
For fear is thy weakness.
For fear is death.

a humble rose

2009-08-23T02:06:00.001+08:00

Trampled to skin the floor,

By the very spawns who came as fluid entities.

To gently feed the sleeping serpent, he provokes.

To no fault of his, he succumbs to paralysis.

As he holds the rose which pricks and flow such honest vanities,

He sees not the said witch, but truth, virtue and humble mystery.

As the rose sheds her petals in regret for which he bleeds,

He just looks at her and concedes.

He whispers, “Hush now, shed no more.”

And he explains, for every petal fallen he hurts by four.

He raises her to his lips, as her thorns still embedded to subdue.

His gentle breathe gently blows on her being,

He says, “I love you.”

composed by: the great one

humanly

2009-07-04T14:45:00.005+08:00

when the sun meets the pupil,
a brand new day arises with a mission only God knows.
diving right into our humanly lifestyles,
to feed ego, to indulge excessively in a passion or to being intemperate,
but just never once to please Him.

temptations that surrounds,
destroying the wondrous creation of God with darkness,
like a disease that kills, it spreads without a known.

influenced by the prince of devils, Beelzebub.
despicable enough to put death upon the innocents.
our mistakes we face with denial.

unlike a new born.
we make our choices, we answer to our deeds.
but till judgment day,
we shall be weary, weary of our every move.

this would bring back loads of memories

2009-06-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

yew have added
sparkles tu my eyes,
sweet nothings tu my ear,
a scent thru my nose,
sugar tu my lips..
and a melody tu my heartbeat.
i luurrve yew darling
with all my heart.
and neber will yew be replaced.
lurrves,
-pwiincess'j-

Endless Rain - X Japan.I'm so addicted to it..

2009-06-17T01:43:00.001+08:00

Lyrics | X Japan lyrics - Endless Rain lyrics

i love you daddy

2009-04-26T12:35:00.002+08:00

sorry if i have made you angry again.
i never meant to do so.
i have always tried so hard, always did.

daddy, i am so sorry i keep failing you.
i am so sorry for the times i act like a kid.
i am so sorry i could not make you happy.
i am sorry i was never the perfect kid.

daddy, i truly love you.
the words you use sometimes hurt so much.
so much that i break lose and go insane.
daddy, please don't hate me.
please stop being angry at me.
i promise i will be good.

i don't want to compare.
but sometimes it isn't fair.
please forgive me if i feel jealous.
i want that same attention too.
please forgive me if i hate her.
she gets more than what i do.
please forgive me if i beat her.
for the pain she puts me through.

i love you daddy.
i really do.
don't be angry.
don't be mad.
i am your daughter too.

shmalliie

2009-04-25T17:48:00.006+08:00

she is one hell of an ugly girl.
but she is the cutest kid ever.
the darlingest of the darlings.
and is a smartie little creature too.
miss yong zi qing.

even bum bum thinks this is one cute girl,
not attractive but extremely adorable.

i so wish i could keep her as my pet.
she is such a shmallie.
weehooo.....

14thdecember2008.blessed sacrament church

2008-12-17T14:53:00.000+08:00

another day in church.
it's the christmas carnival larhh.
but miss those dayss.
the days of our time.
church was like my second home.
nowadays these kids are so useless..

boring bunch of people around.
miss watching soccer or playing table soccer.
the basement, the long chats and stuff..
ohhh and the crushes we had.hahaha

hai...all over now..
see ya'll on christmas eve old peeps.

three cheers to gloria jean's

2008-12-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

gloria jean's rock my sock

mudcakiies.woohooo
one more pleaseee

and my all time favourite cocoa loco
enjoymenntss.....

my elimo

2008-11-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

my darling zamzam and mr. khai

i miss you so much..
kuku..stop working and meet me now can?
i hate this feeling.
i so need your shoulders to cry on now.
i need you my punching bag.
i have so much to tell you.

The ONE Up Above

2008-11-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

you strengthen me indeed.
you chose to live an arduous way of life.
the way which few would choose.
the way of perseverance and strength.
the way of sharing and kindness.
you love each and everyone of us,
good or bad, you never gave up on us.
yet you encourage us to stand up and walk on.
no matter how evil our sins may be.
you treasured us ever so dearly.
so much i want to thank you for.
even for the little things you did.
and apologise for the wrongs i have made
even in times of troubles.
you listened to my rantings.
and you never complained a single word.
instead you showed me how great of a person i am.
a person of good news.

reliving the moment? heh.you wish

2008-11-22T13:05:00.000+08:00

if i had a chance to relive a moment,
i would relive last night till morn.

went for a movie.
pasir panjang started out bad.
but the night died.
and dawn brought party to live.
hooha was great.
sang tong hua in front of a crowd.
how embarrassing.
yet you think it was good.
you held me in your arms way back home.
and the moment has just begun.
everything felt comfortable then.
even your egoism had flown away.
i wonder why.
it feels so perfect.
but then.reality had to step in.
knock on the door and threw me senses.
and i realise it may not be for long.
and here i am again in tears over a stupid f**k.
trying to think of reliving the impossible.
what has gotten into me.
when will this ever end i wonder.
give me a break. im jaded, really.

if only people could see it through my eyes.
then this pain they shall understand and realise.

i miss you too

2008-11-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

I don't even have to breath a word
And you said it all.
Now I'm filled with anguish and pain.
Numbed like a porcelain doll.

If only I was selfish enough.
Then maybe, only maybe.

How much I yearn for you.
Your body against mine.
Savouring every moment spent.
I fight those tears of mine.

Know not of what I'm doing.
Maybe love it shall be called.
For this is the very feeling
I have never felt before.

If only I knew the answers.
If only I could change time.
If only I could decide what my heart is longing for.
Or if only you were mine.

But if only, if onlys could exist.
For this agony i can't resist.

chika chika boom boom

2008-11-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

chika chika boom boom.
there was a boy named shoom shoom.
an alien invaded his room room.
he brought her out on a vroom vroom.
they went somwhere to oom oom.
their love began to bloom bloom.
and he became her groom groom.
regretting being with woom woom[alien].
he chased her with a broom broom.
now she looks very gloom gloom.
falling into her doom doom.
finally landed into her tomb tomb.

he then found a wife named foom foom.
and got her pregnant in her womb womb.
they then named their child noom noom.
happy was shoom shoom to marry foom foom.
where they lived happily in a street called choom choom.

the end.

created by the twinnies
farhana and lavinia

i sit by

2008-11-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

just as the clouds pass me by
to think there is more beyond those skies
beneath that mystery up above
lies us humans with fickle minds

sitting here deep in thoughts
craving to know the existence of God
who is that majestic figure up above
who directs our story life here on earth

being strong for you

2008-11-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

i shall cry tears so clear
to be seen as a being beyond magnitude
agonized by reality
a notion i disagree
yet fruitless to salvage
bitten by the truth i sit in silence
fixing the shattered glass of my heart
still. scars shall remain

a banish child of eve
weeping this valley of tears
courageous on the surface
but a fragile heart resides in thee

as love surrounds
thou shall wrestle thy despair
for with strength, there is hope
and with hope, triumph

i would rather take your place

2008-11-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

my heart is sinking
my baby is drowning
in those cuffs you immerse
a remorseful act of shame
resenting your own
you hide like a snail

an outcome you shall face
but with strength and love,
you shall fight this battle of war

in God's grace you shall repent
and you shall rise like a sublime being
proud and behold you shall conquer
for i will always be your pillar of strength

i will forever love you
your sister,
your friend

you will always be my little baby love

fallen angel i shall be

2008-11-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

As though in Romeo and Juliet.
Gullible as it may seem.
Like a broken recorder.
Its history repeats.
Realise, you did not.
A fallen angel awaits your fall.
Like an eagle protecting its young.
It will stand against all odds.
But invisible to your sight.
You stabbed it time and again.
Wounded and scarred,
it has finally died.
In peace now it shall leave.
For its mission is done.
Above heavens it shall watch you.
As you prey and hunt.

arghhh

2008-11-06T09:02:00.000+08:00

what am i suppose to do?
i do miss you
what am is suppose to do?
i do want you
what am i suppose to do?
i do like you
why do you make me tingle in my tummy?
if only the answer was known.
if only moments last forever.
if only, if onlys exist.

blood is thicker than water

2008-10-25T09:13:00.000+08:00

my loves

2008-10-20T10:42:00.006+08:00

my crazy little darlings
adly - crazy faggot
adylah - gossip partner
adyl - joker

love you all...

nizam

2008-10-20T09:20:00.000+08:00

a best friend
a confidante
a brother
a soul mate

Numbed by his past
Intoxicated in a world of his own
Zero-to-hero he rises in august
An amiable being of respect
Mentality beyond limits

love ya.
muacks

A story of a girl who is all grown up

2008-10-18T11:24:00.001+08:00

There is a girl who is all grown up.
With each stepping stone she passes, she succeed.
And with each fall she made, she learnt.
She was once known to be a shipwreck of no worth.
But with perseverance she awaits for salvage.
Climbing each step of the ladder to reach the top.
And with each step she trips, she grew as she learnt.
Now wiser that before she stands with magnanimity,
a prideful woman who stands on solid grounds.
Anticipating for the greatest troupe of army to bring her down.
But her spirit so strong she will conquer with honour,
against those who stands her way.
For now there is a girl who is all grown up.

FARAWAY

2008-10-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

Futile to thy existence, i sit now in silence.
Awaiting for a glance from those glistening eyes.
Reminiscing enchanting memories of the past.
And longing for those strokes brushed across my cheeks.
Where water runs dry, so will love, or was it even so?
A pain to endure in this ivory heart.
Yearning for just one last....

that night

2008-10-15T14:43:00.002+08:00

i totally had a great time with all of you

it was so 'the night'

miss the loads of fun

the screamings,the dancings,the madness....

must do it again someday alright

the chalet, club, bbq

but this time no chicken poxies pleasee.hehe

"mummy! we shall go see that bartender you like soon kae?!?"

woohooooo....i lurve you girlss.muuackxx

happiie iis thhe momennt ii havve noww

2008-10-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

surrounded by the four walls
submerged in a tub so deep.
seeing a world beyond my control
i tear myself to sleep.
why do i see myself as a fruitless being
when so much i have achieved?
why do i bring myself to shame
when i have so much to be proud of?
strangling my thoughts
i lay off my burdens.
now as i lay down to wonder in my dreams
i lay like a child soundly in her sleep.

me

2008-10-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

who am i, if you don't see me as i am?
what does it make me, if you change me?
why do i become what you want me to be?
where do i stand, if you dont like me for me?
how can i live if im not myself?
a reflection so futile i see now
dreading over fruitless thoughts
seeking for salvage but sunken too deep
drowning into a whole new world
a very drab one i must say
where people of my kind breath the same air
where i know i am in my comfort zone

to sit and reflect

2008-10-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

When people hurt you, think of them as sand papers..
They may rub and scratch you painfully
but eventually,you will end up smooth and polished..
While they end up worthless

When you can't cry anymore
it doesn't mean your out of tears,
it means you've gotten stronger...

by farhan

In Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaiman

2008-10-08T20:32:00.001+08:00

"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

didiercornellvalonia

2008-10-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

if there is one person i can rely on,

one person i can trust
or one person i will love forever,
that is her..and cornell is her name.

my shelter when it rains
my punching bag when fiery
my comfort when lost
my pillow when wearied
my friend to listen
my elixir of happiness
my sister she will forever be

.i lurve yew girrl.
muackxx

by a great mind

2008-10-05T17:58:00.002+08:00

Like anything which is precious
A diamond of thorn amongst the roses
Vividly created with flaws of imperfection
Incidentally like Eve's very own reflection.
Not knowing its true form of purpose
Inducing hope and prayers amongst the devil's curses
A diamond beyond the confinement of the word precious

by shahrman

2008-10-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

the elixir of my life
the antidote to insanity
the acidic reaction
the two treasured friends

i miss you both

my confidante

2008-09-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

Fragile is her heart that yearns.
A guileless being trapped in her own maze.
Reaching out for a hand to hold.
Hope is all she has to rely on.
Anticipating the moment she longs for.
Not knowing of its danger.
Again she drowns herself into crimson blood.

whatever it is girl, i'll be there [and i mean it]

my clone, my friend

2008-09-25T09:14:00.000+08:00

Like the reflection in my mirror.
A guileless being I see.
Jaded by her own paranoia.
An ivory heart she bleeds crimson blood.
A mind of catastrophe.
A maze of her own she stands, lost.

patience and sincerity, her words of wisdom.yet...

2008-09-24T07:15:00.002+08:00

patience has its limit.
the amount of sincerity is never satisfied.
therefore even those words of wisdom may eventually die.
the gift of chance were given to them.
now it boils down to whether they would pick chance up and treasure it.

hangers

2008-09-24T01:54:00.001+08:00

hangers are who we are.
left among the rack of an abandoned closet
achluophobic, yet able to sacrifice.
just yearning to be noticed.
no sense of belonging.
no hope of revival.
given a chance,
i would rather be left as a garbage.

full stop

2008-09-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

like a sponge that drips water,
my brains alike.
jaded with the overloading task at hand
i'm reaching to the point of conclusion.
laying my spirit slowly down to sleep,
to wander deep.
at last, my antidote i take
my mind's at ease.

my next door neighbour

2008-07-28T00:16:00.005+08:00

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Soaring like an eagle with magnanimity
High and above he stands amongst the crowd
Alone he tramples over the greatest army
Hidden is the heart that beats like a child
Resentment of the past that scars the soul
Moulding it to aggrandize
Alone he shall not be, for he resides in the hearts of many
Never knowing of his own beauty

the constant moment

2008-07-13T10:01:00.015+08:00

looking deep into my own being,
all i see is a rock in a no body's land,
awaiting for your arrival to appreciate such inestimable worth.
as you picked up this futile rock and named it diamond,
you nurtured it to make a difference among reality.
by protecting its mind against the common species,
you nursed this guileless diamond into a sublime being.
now as i walk out of this land with magnanimity.
you shall stand proud of your accomplishments.

mister yeu

2006-05-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

if it aint yeu
then who else cud it be
if it aint yeu
wad more do i have to do
if it aint yeu
any sense means no sense
if it aint yeu
where wud i be
if it aint yeu
i dun wanna even continue...
cause it is definiely yeu
im sure

mentally immuned

2006-05-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

restless and wearied.
still not overcomed by my inner being.
i'm sick and tired
i've had enough.
trapped without air
not being able to breath.
if only i could vanish
or be transparent to this world.
stares that kills as though i'm mad.
i don't wanna go through this again another day.